Would you love me back to you?

Unlike the squirrel in the snow

I'm trying to find my way home

Seeking warmth
Longing for safety

I'm not trying to be cute
I'm just trying to make it through

Being lost in the flakes
I hate the fact that I'm alone

Fluffy flakes, falling fast
My footprints, covered in white
Would you find me if I cry?

Unlike the squirrel in the snow

I'm not built to survive this cold

Needing heat
Longing for fire

I'm not trying to be bold
I'm just running from the cold

Being here in the frost
I'll hate to end a frozen soul

Fighting furious flurries; failing
My heartbeat, drums out a question
Would you love me back to you?

Starting Over

A few days ago, I published a post I wrote in November 2010 that I may live and love for long in an uncommon way. When I wrote it, I had every intention of living up to it. However, the reality is that the next year was tougher and by November 2011, I had not only forgotten that goal, I had exhausted myself trying to be more than enough to too many people all at once.

I discovered that I am not useful empty. I am breakable. I am responsible for my well being. I do not have to internalise. There are good people out there who care enough to listen and help me up when I fall. Common sense stuff you would think but it took almost destroying the best relationships in my life to realise these things.

Today, I am starting over in a sense and to track my progress, I will blog randomly about lessons I am learning as I rebuild relationships. I will be honest, incoherent, high and low but most of all, I will be me.

I 94 Exit 230 - The promise road.

On the promise road
At that bridge just before downtown
every face is a semblance of mine
Focused
Hopeful
Anything can happen today
On that bridge later
After nothing has happened
The same repeats
Moods change
Faces reflect the uncertainty felt
Until tomorrow
When we hope again

What can I say?

That's the question that mostly kept me away.

What can I say?

It's been over a year.

What can I say?

My life continues to change in ways I can't quite blog about.

What can I say?

Dunno. Should I even try?

What can I say?

Hello there or hi?

What can I say?

I'm back if only for a while.